Thursday, August 31, 2006
Farewell To Friends
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!! Woo!!! Woo!! .... meh.
It's teacher's day, and we were supposed to have a combined Acer's Day workout, but we did not because it rained non-stopped. Instead, they used our H&F class and did the workout. But at least, after the thing out class played a Little Catching. Haha ... the Girls were the catchers. I managed to evade many of them, but I got busted twice. I was being chased by Sirin, so I made a turn to the Back of the Hall. Then suddenly, Clarissa came out of nowhere and ambushed me. Haha ... it was funny.
Then we had class and the Teacher's Day Concert! I wanted to see a Rock Band performing ... NOT A SYMPHONIC BAND!!!! ... Dammit. All and All - Worst Teacher's Day Concert ... Ever! It was fucking Unorganized and the MCs are ... well, not up to standard.
After school, followed Wilson back to our home soil - Xinmin Primary School. Haha .. went there, met with some teachers and old friends. Brought back so much Memories. We reunited and reignited the Friendship in which we have Forged Long ago. Enemies are traitorous thoughts were gone, we came together and did... stuff ... ya da ya da .. Crap. We came, we talked, we were Happy. Lots of people changed, seriously changed ALOT. Never knew Tony could be so, open and dramatic in speech. Woo. It was fun. But I was unprepared. If I had time, I would have returned home, made my Hair flat, and wore Eyeliner. Haha, that would have made a good impression. But everthing was fine. Met with old shopkeepers that i used to buy stuff last time too. Haha ... I admit, my Primary School was hell, but I did managed to Changed alot of people for the Better. An example is Tony. hahaha ...
Then went home, and slept. Took a nap, and I kept dreaming about stuff which I kept making me feel something bad is going to happen. Gah .. just dont understand. Meh...
Btw, I finally got a Lamborghini Gallardo in the NFS:MW ... woo! It's fucking Fast man. Gonna use it for more Races. Yeah!
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/31/2006 09:33:00 PM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Follow The Format
Didn't post yesterday ... no mood/lazy.
Had school. Lame and borign as usual ... didn't watched Hitler during History class today. Fooled around and made Leonard feel "lame" ... haha ... Oh ya, Btw ... WHATEVER HAPPENED IN SEC 1 STAYS IN SEC 1 ... dont want to remember those bad feeling days. Then I'm always targetted by Miss Lai and Mdm Siti during Home Ec ... and Maths is just getting more boring by the minute. Meh ...
After school went home ... saw Mr. Spencer waiting at Monfort Sec .. Wtf is he doing down there?! Meh ... Thought I wanted to go back out and cycled and maybe change my Bike Chain, but didn't. I was supposed to go back to school Anyways for the Modern Dance thing but I Hate Dancing dammit. So followed my dad to Sim Lim Square. Bought a new Joypad. My old one was giving problems to the Comp. Then went to Carrefour and bought a new Headphone. Why is my headphones always getting spoiled? ...
Now went home ... played NFS a lil ... meh. Yesterday was whacky though ... but it sucked.
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/29/2006 11:53:00 PM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
They Crash Around Me ...
Wtf?! What have I done ... some people now hate me? Again? My gawd ... robots ...
My life is just full of Ups ... and Waaaaaaayyyy Down ... I dont even know what the heck I did ... WILL SOMEONE JUST SAY SOMETHING WHAT I DID?!?!?!
Wtf is wrong with this world or with me ... Just when my Days are starting to be Good ... it all Falls like this again ... Fuck this shit ...
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/27/2006 11:31:00 PM
My Gawd, Robots ...
Woke up at 9:45am ... haha. Had 15mins to rush through before my tution starts. Managed to did just that ... but skipped Breakfast. Had tution ... and I'm now a complete Idiot in Maths ... even thought I thought I rocked in Maths once.
After tution played NFS: Most Wanted. Since my PC was Reformatted, I had to restart the thing ... but somehow, I'm playing faster than I did ... I'm now at Blacklist #7, Kaze. I only started playing on Thursday ... haha.
Then last minute idea, my dad wanted to go to Jusco (Johor, Malaysia) ... meh. We drived there ... walk around etc. I thought I wanted to look for some Accesories, but didn't had time and I was too lazy. Ate Spaghetti and left for home. Seriously, Malaysia's trafic system, SUCKS. We were stuck and lost many times. Their Sign boards are USELESS, the Streetlights are as good as NOTHING, Car Parks are liek SHIT, and the Lanes are almost FUCKED UP. But luckily, we never got stuck in any Long Traffic jams ... Haha.
Went home and played more NFS ... woo! This game is seriously addictive, in a way ... somehow. Tomorow Sirin is not coming to school ... but I have to do a favour for her ... woo ... things are gonna get Whacky.
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/27/2006 11:10:00 PM
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Ex Marks The Spot
Woke Up Late Again!!! Dammit ... but luckily I rushed quick enough. Managed to get to School just ontime (thanks to Taxi Driver Man!!). Went for CIP. Went around the Blocks and went around houses ... ask them for stuff (newspapers, unwanted stuff etc..) ... woo ... we Collected Lots of them ... and some of them could even be Salvaged for our own use. I took a Kids Company Magazine and Our ARMY Newsletter thingy ... haha.
Went to CP. Helped Mr. Tay find an ATM for him and he wanted to treat us all. We boys decided not to. We feel sorry for him ... but the girls they all Forced him to treat them ... with Extra Money. Dammit sia ... how rude. Managed to survive with Buns and share drinks. We used less than $10 ... we can Survive man! Woo! .. Then went home with Leonard ... he took songs for his Mp3 from my Comp. Like I said, I only allow Newbies or People I Invite to my hosue. Family is exceptional ... then went back to School.
Went for NCC and watched how everything ended up. Winston seriously has Bad Mood Swings ... then I just waited at the Canteen. I couldn't came home until 2pm. Faz & Co. invited me again ... so I just followed them ... meh. Went to Pasir Ris Park and did Crap. Rented a bike ... Drifted around. Got wet under the Rain and went home! Woo ... what a totally useless thing to do on a Saturday afternoon.
Went home, decided to scare Sirin with the Maze Game. (hehe) Instead, she re-directed the Convey and ask me stuff about ... meh. Cant say ... not gonna break the trust. So basically, Monday, I'm gonna get Answers & stuff. It's gonna get seriously wrong, real fast, real bad ... eventually I did managed to Scare her ... WOO! Another victim ...
Oh Btw, Dont Ask Anything About My Day Or This. I WILL NOT ANSWER ANYTHING. Dont Even Bother ...
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/26/2006 07:30:00 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006
I'll Bleed If You Want Me To
A Friday ... woke up a bit late. Meh ... was Late for school. Dammit sia ... I was just going to enter, and the bloody prefect go and close the gate, right infront of my nose. Dammit lah ...
So on Monday I need to come before 7:10am ... meh ... I have to wake up at 5am again.
After skool, had a short Class with Miss Hidayah ... woo. Chemistry rocks ...l but Physics dont.
Then went home ... and when I got home, Fadhil wanted to come to my house. Lame lah ... how many times must a Say already sia ... yet he still insist ... so no choice. Dammit ... came to my house go and save Pictures ... lame pictures ... Khai too came ... played Habbo. Meh..
Then cycled to Arifs place again and played Soccer. We played for like 30mins then, we got BUSTED. Police came. They talk to us ... some of us even try to Buzz away. Haha. So we had to write down our names and stuff ... now we have a Mini-Record ... sigh. I'm now on the Wanted List ... hopefully it's not Most Wanted .. made some Cost-to States and my hopefully Bounty wouldn't be that high ... hehe ... yeah, I'm lame ... too much NFS .. meh. After all that cycled to Sengkang CC and went for my Guitar Class. I rock so much with a Guitar ... notes, Chords etc are fun to read ... but complicated if you're a noob. Haha ...
Cycled home and well ... did nothing much. I'm going to install my games now ... meh. Today was been another Good day for me ... I think things are looking at the Bright side now ... August maybe Ending ... September is coming ... just Wake me up when September ends ... okay? K? Kay!
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/25/2006 08:39:00 PM
Thursday, August 24, 2006
The Dark Matinee
I almost hated today. But I managed to handle alot of stuff today. I finally tried and the feeling is finally gone. I no longer have it ... it's been burried. Deeper now ... I know it will return soon ... but at least now I'm prepared! This 3 years of Secondary School has taught me alot, Maturely, Mentally, Physically, Sexualy, Manly etc ... so if Love would ever want to make a Pawn of it's game of Chess again ... I will make it worthwhile and I would maybe able to find what I need...
Seriously, I almost hated today. Recess sucked ... accidentally made a Handball, causingt he NAs to lose against the Express in Soccer ... Dammit sia .. But I managed to stay happy ... I was at ease and no longer being so stressed out etc ... Leonard on the other hand ... has become the New Emo-to-be ... With my teachings, I have spread the Poison, Pills, and Hopless hearts to make others Ill ... they have finally opened their eyes and see that the World is not what it seems to be. Not a Happy Gooberg world ... but even worst.
After skool, went out again with me bike and sent out Flyers around the blocks. Lame ... ya ... then cycled around with Khai and Fadhil ... meh. I returned back to skool to get a Drink from the Watercooler (I was short of money) ... went i arrived, I found Winston shouting at Kelvin (my P.A. Cadet) .. he was Damn mad sia ... nv seen him like that before ... Cool! Then returned with them. Fad went home ... me and Khai went to Arifs place again. PLayed soccer ... fun sia ... but we lost. Meh ... haha. When I was leaving, I was already half way home, when I realised that I forgotten my keys!!! I rushed back and tried to search for it ... Some kids told me somebody else already took it ... Dammit sia!!! I need my Keys Back!!!
Oh ya, I had my Computer Re-Formatted ... Woo! It's now Refreshed and no longer Retarded ... no more Porn on this Compy for sure ... I'm Not Risking For ANother Virus ... Dammit.
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/24/2006 10:41:00 PM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Crash The Cemetery Gates
Today, well ... went to school abit late I guess. Hah.
Then skool was okay .. played around with Leonard and Sirin during the classes. Haha. I'm so lame... I got 3 Correct in the Peribahasa Test thingy in Malay Class .. .Woo!!!
Then PE played Soccer. Yeah man, Top-Form Defender! I managed to defend alot of goals ... haha.
Then cycled home, changed my shirt and cycled back to RP. Returned Syafiq's guitar ... then went and followed them to under a block ... crapped alittle and showed me drifting stylez. Khai called me, so I buzzed off and went to meet him.
He was getting his bike repaired. Once it was done, we went to Arif's place ... once there, we met him and just our luck, he too was preparing to Cycle. We joined them and we went to Fernvale Rd. Took a detour and did a little Jungle Hiking ... Dammit, I stepped on a Dead Frog!
After everything, Cycled home ... and reached home about 7pm. Just nice ....
So, I won't stop Lying, won't stop Dying ...
If you want I'll keep on Crying ...
I'm still waiting and trying to be Happy ... this day has been unexpectedly more forgiving to me than most days. I know it won't last ... I need to find ...
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/23/2006 08:26:00 PM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
To The End
Boring day. Skool was meh-ish again. Home Ec lesson was weird and stupid. After skool, went home and took my bike ... went back to skool.
I went around the WHOLE Skool and search for Khai and Fadhil ... eventually I found them near RP. Dammit ... played Drifting for awhile ... then went in with the Modern Dancers ... Dammit! I OFFICIALLY HATE DANCING!!!! It's so embarassing and ... awkward ... I Dont Want to Be A Dancer! I want To Be a Guitarist!!! We were forced to do this ... Gah.
After everything, went home .. I practiced Drifting around again .... I'm getting better ... gewd.
I cant post much ... I want to leave this Computer alone. It's TOtally Broken again .. Need to reformatt it ... dammit lah ... Sigh ... oh well ... my life just sucks. I'm still waiting with a hope inside of me ... waiting for something/someone to open up my life fully ... I hope it won't be too late ... sigh...
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/22/2006 10:02:00 PM
Monday, August 21, 2006
Swing Life Away - DELETED
DUE TO COMPLAINS OF PEOPLE AND PEOPLE KEEP TRYING TO SAY "GOOD" STUFF TO MAKE ME HAPPY, THIS POST HAS DESTROYED BY THE POWER OF MY LAMELINESS ...
Forget whatever you just saw ... KTHXBB
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/21/2006 10:08:00 PM
A Decade Under The Influence
Sorry for no post yesterday. My PC went Beserk and kept on restarting and errors keep popping up .. this went on for almost 2 hours.
Skool today was meh-ish ... the Assembly was exactly what I had dreamt off ... a Guitar performance. it was good ... Some of the Songs played on the Classical Guitar that the guy played, I could also play the song .. woo! Sadly they didn't played the Power Chord part of Wake Me Up When September Ends ... but what I was dissappointed of was, that They didn't ask for any Volunteers to try the Guitar ... I So Wanted to go!!! I was so ready ... Dammit!
Speaking of Guitars ... Brought back home Syq's guitar ... need to tune it again. Meh ... at least I can Jamm for abit with this thing. Yay. After I reached home, I went out Cycling ... random cycle. Woo .. Went 1 round around the School, then 3 Rounds around Rivervale Plaza, to Compass Point, then Sprint back to RP and went 2 more rounds. Practiced my Drifting/Slide turning ... Yay, I can now do a 360 Drift ... Then went home. Met Winston and we talked crapped as usual.
This is an early post because I'm too lazy to Post tonight ... I'm going out newayz ... Kthxbb
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/21/2006 05:25:00 PM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
A Favour House Atlantic
Wow, late post ... hah.
Today woke up at 7:15am. Late again!!!! Dammit! I quickly rush and get ready and left home. Took a Taxi. Wasted $6 ... when I arrived I immediately had to board the Bus, and Bus was about to leave. Lucky sia ... if I took a Bus, I would be late!!!
Then arrived at Pasir Ris Park. Rented a Bike and cycled around .. I can now Drift on a Bike! Yay!! Then played soccer a little. Huzaifah is a Machine man! Nobody can get pass him. Dammit ... haha. So all and all had a great active time in Pasir Ris Park with NCH. Woo ... the only prob was ... I should have Brought more Money because I was Fucking Thirsty there!!! Dammit...
After that, went home. I knocked on the door and rang the bell .. but no one answered. I called my mum, and she said she was at Geylang. WTF?! I had to wait for like 45mins outside of my house leh .. just sat there and took a nap. My mum returned home and found me there. Woke me up, entered the house ... then I continued my Nap (in my room of course). Woke up at 5pm hah. That's me day ..
Kthxbb
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/19/2006 11:14:00 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
The Fiction We Live
You might be just what I need,
No I would not change a thing.
Been dreaming of this, so long.
But we only exist in this song.
The thing is I'm not worth the sorrow
And if you come and meet me tomorrow.
I will hold you down, fold you in,
Deep, deep, deep in the fiction we live.
I break in two over you,
I break in two and if a piece of you dies.
Autumn, I will bring you back to life,
Of course I see you, I do.by From Autumn To Ashes
Just a random Song ... which somehows is kinda So True for my case. Wow ... another song that can relate to me. Wow, Double Post!!!
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/18/2006 09:46:00 PM
Life On The Murder Scene
School was normal ... except for Maths ... hated that Test! I surely failed it.
Then went back home quickly and did final Logistics stuff ... then rushed to Paris Ris. Got a miscommunication and everyone waited for nothing. I shouted at them infront of EVERYBODY ... wow. I totally made a scene.
Then went to the Park. We played around and waited for the NCH guys. Waited and played. Me and Winston gayed around for awhile ... haha. I'm never going to be Gay ever again ... EVER. It's Emo/Sadness/Quiet/Minus the Rash all the waaaayy ... from now on ... We waited and fooled around together (Got extremely dizzy at 1 point). We kept on waiting, then the NCH ASM called and said they were going to go for Lunch .. WTF?! We waited for more than 2 hours sia ... still want to waste our bloody time. The rest then decided to buzz off ... and then, Arrival of Khai, Jeremy, XY and YJ. We explained to them .. and Jeremy ask me something which could downgrade the NCC pride to people in our school even further ... what's more worst is that this "Crime" was done by a Spec .. and the "Crime" had me on it, but I'm not the Suspect ...
We then rushed to the Bus and went home. Follow Jeremy CP for awhile ... looked for CDs and crap ... then he went home and I went for my Guitar Class. From this day on, I am officially a Guitar Musician/Player/Artist/Expert. I can play Notes, Tabs, Chords, etc ... Woo! Says my Instructor, Mr. Roy. Yeah ... but I still have to take the Yamaha Guitar Exam to fully confirm this new Title of mine.
Went home took a taxi and just ate me Meds and stared at the computer again ... meh.
For the record, I'm never going to the Pasir Ris Park Bus Station ever again ...
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/18/2006 09:07:00 PM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Autumn's Monologue
Sick today ... woke up with a High Fever, bad Sore throat and cant even talk .. and my nose wasn't there at all ... gah. So didn't go to skool ... spent the whole day sleeping. Dreamt about stuff close to me ... I woke up around 2pm and found myself tearing ... wow.
Played NFS again. I finally sold off my Supra and bought a Mitsubishi Lancer. This car is better. It managed to escape 2 pursuits. It still needs tuning though. Had the handling fixed. Now alls I need is an Upgrade for the Speed and Acceleration. Woo.
Then night came, along with the Stressness ... Kokky and Winny kept asking me questions about the Trial Run tomorow. The more they ask, the more stress I get. Dammit ... after that, I found a website with a WHOLE LIST of Scare Animations. Woo! I tried one of them .. it was something about a Love Song. Haha .. managed to scare Faz and Winston. Woo... haha .. So now I'm the Scare King for now ... Get your Free Scare TODAY!! Bwahahaha ...
Bleh .. nothing else happened much after that. Just played the guitar and called someone on the phone ... yeah right ... wait, it is Autumn right now ... Right? o_0"
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/17/2006 10:12:00 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
My Chemical Romance
Well, it's over.
I don't like her nor want her anymore ... I dont want to ruin or sadden my life any further ... I wasted too much time .. and the risk is getting higher by the minute. It is just best to let it go ... I have thought about this through ... and I think it's for the Best ... Walking Alone would be the choice for me. All they way. And that is the end of My Chemical Romance (not the Band you dumbass).
Got Sore throat/Throat Infection, Cough, and Runny Nose today ... I immediately realised this when I woke up. Went to see doctor for awhile. Then headed for school... went to the NCC Room and took a little Nap. After that, I jst watched the rest doing PT. I would have joined them, but I'm sick remember? Doi ... then while the rest went to the Class room, I went to eat a small breakfast. Then went to the Classroom and listened to every single bit and watched a Movie about BMT. wow ...
Classes were boring and dumbing down ... got teased and again. Wasn't having a good day (when was I ever having one?) because of this and kena stressed out by teachers. Physics sucks. On the way to PE class, saw Prem ... he said to me was I thinking "RASHionally" .. dammit ... fuck that shit. Everyone then started to use that on me and forced me to rammed onto them. Don't they know I was scarred by Name-Callings during my Primary school life?! It was because of my Pri skool life that I'm like this ... I'm not only depressed and Emo-ish in Sec skool ... you dont know me, so Shuddup ...
After skool, went home with Syafiq ... did crapped. I only allowed New-comers or people I invited to my house. Those who insist on coming to my house for No Reason and have visited for more than 5 times and made a mess of my room, would be banned ... for a period of time. Dammit ... after he left, took a nap .. etc ... today was suckish too .. meh... well at least I've made a decision .. hopefully, it's for the bloody best ... dammit ...
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/16/2006 09:19:00 PM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage
Dammit, my life is getting more screwed and suckish by the minute. Seriously ... today was one of the worst days ... haven't been being myself or feeling right ... Dammit!
School is getting more crapped too. I'm getting screwed by almost everyone (even teachers) every minute and people forcing me to bring them to my house. Seriously ... people have been visiting my house for more than 5 times already .. this and last month ... my parents don't approve of this and yet people still want to come. I keep putting it off with excuses ... I just dont want people to come to my house, screw around with my stuff and my computer and watch porn causing my computer to get a fucking virus. DAMMIT!!! Stop coming here already .. Dont get the Habit! My hosue is not a good place to hang out ... it's an Evil place where I suffer alone .. DO NOT Disturb My peace!! Dammit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Crap, went to RP again today ... thoughtI would have the chance but No ... and the more I wait, the more the Dangerous the situation would get ... Dammit ... I'm still waiting ... just waiting ... so Shussh!!! Dammit ... I still have to finish up the Treasure Hunt stuff ... and I keep putting it off due to my fucking mood ... *controls self not to say "dammit"* ... Gah, DAMMIT!! Bleh ... I know what I need to do ... if I can just do this, I'll be back to normal again, but currently I'm being too fucked up to do anything. Just hope I won't die first ... I'm not going to Die ... yet.
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/15/2006 10:43:00 PM
Monday, August 14, 2006
Fission Mailure
Yes, yes ... Mission Failure ... whatever ... crap.
Not in the mood to post or do anything ... I'm just not happy.
So,
Shuddup, Go Away!...
No, Seriously ..
GO AWAY!!!! -_-"Fuck this life ...
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/14/2006 05:04:00 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
And It Begins ...
It begins tomorow. riigghhht. ... dont care abuot that. Meh...
Well, didn't have tution today ... woo, but I followed my Mom, Uncle and Aunt to the Cemetery. We went to visited my Grandmom and Granddad's grave. Sigh ... it was truely sad.
After paying our mutual visits, we went to have breakfast at Adam Road. Ate Nasi Lemak ... it is said that the Nasi Lemak there is one of the best in Singapore ... hmm... cheap too. It was good. Enjoyed me meal and we all left for home.
Alright, once I reach home. I immediately went to check my bag ... wanted to finish up my Malay worksheets ... only to find them ... MISSING. God dammit, I accidentally left them under my table. So tomorow it's gonna be hell for me. I have to do as much as I can in 3 hours or Suffer again. And I dont want to suffer ... this may risk my chances ... meh.
So yeah, wasted my life again on the PC. Playe NFS again ... my Cobalt SS is damn Sexy! Look!
Haha ... I may want to keep this car for some time ... I upgraded it alot already. But I'm still waiting to get a Subaru thingy mcjiggy .. that car can Seriously Drift!
So well yeah .. basically ... this day kinda suck too .. oh well
Kthxbb
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/13/2006 08:53:00 PM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Cause I Will Remember You!
Saturday? Training? No ... but we did had a Part C evaluation session. I even had to Brief on them about the Treasure Hunt too. I briefed them and explained everything (eventhough 1/4 of them weren't paying attention nor listening nor understood what the fuck I said) and made sure everything is in order. Then Kai Min made us do an evaulation of each other. We wrote Good and Bad Points about our collegues. Then what we wrote would be said. I almost teared after hearing my Bad Points (dont ask ... I'm emotional ... and I suck).
After that, we went to CP. I cycled there, but arrived later because I took a de-tour and passed by ... well ... some house ... nvm. We had lunch, met with some NCH guys (2 actually) and discussed plans. They explained their ideas for their Orienteering plans, and I had to explain mine about the Treasure Hunt plans (Yeah I suck at explaining). After everything, I cycled home. Wee...
Arrived home, wasted another 8 hours of my life on the Computer. Played NFS: Most Wanted ... this game rocks ... street racing rox me sox. Then people started to remind me of Monday. YES! Yes! I will remember it! I will remember what to do. I'm just planning what to do in my Head. Dont' stress me kay? The more stress, the more chances of failure. I will remember Her, I mean, "it" (the plan) ... if I fail, Death would always be waiting for me ... blek ... meh... I will remember it ... Need to do it ... it's a Do or Die situation (literally) ...
Kthxbb
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/12/2006 10:56:00 PM
Friday, August 11, 2006
She'll Never Understand ...
So yeah ... another Friday. Same stuff ... I went to school early today .. I woke up at like 5pm. Burn some songs for that Fadhil ... blek ... Then I checked my stuff and ate a Donut and left home at 6:30am. Arrive at skool, sat there, listen to my Mp3.
The day passed by ... soon during English class, Leonard went to ask me the Question. Dammit ... now it's out .. my plan to do something "Stupid" had quickly Backfired before I could even blinked. Damn. They teased me quiet for awhile during the rest of the day. meh.
The day went along nicely. Played soccer (a must), did Maths, etc... After school, I went home for awhile. Took my Guitar, and my Bike and headed back to skool. Went to the NCC Room, and got a Open Session with Prem. He spoked to us ... and I finally realised .. that we Part Cs ... seriously ... Suck ... yes ... Suck ... eggs ... why eggs? I dont know ... yeah.... We need to buck up .. as long as me ... though I may have gotten some respect from me Part A cadets, I need more to ensure my place with them. =D Whatever lah ... just gonna Buck up from now on ... before anything else bad happens. Woo ...
After everything, went to Guitar class. My instructor tuned my Guitar properly (Yay) and taught me more about the F-chord which is still Fking Hard to do (and painfull). =D After everything, I cycled home ... passed by ... well ... yeah .. a house ... for the fun of it. If you know who's ... good shuddup ... you dont ... just shuddup. Looked around there, nobody, so I just cycled home acting like nobody's buisness ... heh.
Went home ... on the PC ... then I had to reveal stuff ... Gah ... I've confessed "It" to others, but can I confess to the source? Will the it be understood and accepted. Could I? Should I? Find out in the Next Explosive, Implosive, and Emotional Episodes of My Life! Woo!!
Well, Kthxbb
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/11/2006 10:55:00 PM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Yo Ho Ho! And A Bottle Of Rum...
Didn't do anything much today. Woke up at 12pm again. Played the PC for awhile, then around 3pm, I left home and went to Plaza Singapura and watched a Movie ... Pirates Of The Caribean: Dead Man's Chest.
Woo! Finally I managed to see that movie. Bought me self a Nacho Combo and enjoyed the Movie. The movie was bloody funny. Bugger .. haha. Jack Sparrow ... oopps, I mean, CAPTAIN Jack Sparrow is god damn funny. The way he walks, run, talks, and make understandings. His entrance to the Movie is just perfect. Haha ... sadly he had to "Died" .. but I know he'll return in a POC 3. He's new outfit rocks. What dissapointed me though, was that Jack didn't go 1 on 1 with Davy Jones. I thought they would duel. Seeing them Duel would be awesome. Like Luke VS Darth Vader ... only Vader has tentacles, is wet, not black, slimy, ugly, and has a horde of Crustecean crew instead of Stormtroopers. Sad ... haha ...
After I came home, I worked on my TH Prop ... Winston is giving me kinda hell right now ... I'm confused with what exactly he wants in the Proposal ... I'll check with XY about the Prop as soon as I can see him ... Meh ..
Kthxbb
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/10/2006 09:40:00 PM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Face It With A Sense Of Poise & Rationality
Wow ... today was totally nothing man.
Woke up at 12pm ... I bathed, went to the PC ... used it for like 1 hour, then around 2 something ... I went back to sleep. Just lying down on my bed can make me sleepy. Slept for another 2 hours. Around 4pm, I woke up again, watched TV ... then I was knocked out again. I awoke once again at 6. Watched the Parade, saw how good the Guard Of Honor marched in. Then continued with the PC. Nothing much. I only watched the Formation of the Parade and the March Pass. I'm too lazy to watch the whole parade. After the March Pass, I went to the PC again. I only liked the Parade, not the Dancing and Singing ... all those stuff are Crap and boring.
Meh ... about yesterday. Went out with some friends and watched a movie. Some movie about Cars I think .. couldn't remember. It kinda bored me ... meh. Before I went home, I went to Yamaha Music Shop there and jammed a little. Took a guitar, Sat down and strummed a few songs. Hah .. then I bought a pick, since mine is lost again .. Went home then, took the MRT .. it was Damn full. Had to squeeze in. During the ride, I started to think .. and I have concluded that, on Friday .. I'm gonna do something "Stupid" ... So "Stupid" that I might kill myself if it failed. So Support me man! Woo! I have made my choice ... not gonna Look back. Do what must be done ... If it works, I just might be able to be more happy ... meh. I feel unprepared ...
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/09/2006 09:56:00 PM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Lovers and Liars ...
The day before NDP. The School's ND Parade. Our Finest Hour - Wrong!
The Fall of NV NCC ... The Rise Of the Empire (meh..) ... The Begining Of The End for Me ... so many things happened today ... so ... disturbingly (maybe..)
Today, we came early to school. Hoping that we can train the Cadets 1 Last time ... but it seemed that we had no time. We rushed. Briefed in the field. When the Parade began, it was like going to war ... finally going out of the Transport, running for our lives. We stood .. we waited ... we executed. But when it was the Final Cut ... it all fell. All that we had fought for, trained for, became NOTHING. We embarassed ourselves. We marched like the Dead ... hopeless, useless, etc.... Immediately after the parade, I left in shame ... couldn't bare to look at the Part As or Bs ... we had lost our NCC Pride in 1 short day.
I got changed, and ready. I then saw Yanti in a tight (kinda) Cheong Sam dress ... omg. We got outselves ready. I wore eyeliner (yay) and spiked my hair. Hah. When it was our turned, we took the stage and showed off our Costume. Yanti and I ... posed ... we looked like we were Kissing .. I wished ... I mean, No. I dont want to ... our Lips didn't even touch ... heheh ... but it felt somewhat good yet regretfull. Seriously, we looked like Lovers or a Couple ... but we're not Love Birds! So Shuddup! ... I think, maybe, I hope ... We lost (expected). At least we left a "mark" onto people. Jeremy left a bigger Mark though. Haha.
After the whole thing I got comments from my other Classmates about the pose. Heh ... took my stuff from Class and left. I went down to the Multi-Purpose Court and met up with the Specs .. Leonard then told me that Everyone know Hates NCC ... because we had failed to march and we were embarassing ... then I saw Winston, tried to say Hi, but he didn't looked happy. I knew something is definitely wrong .. NV NCC has fallen .. hopeuflly it would Rise once again ... hopefully ...
Dammit, I sound like a Jedi Master or something ...
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/08/2006 10:40:00 AM
Monday, August 07, 2006
Salt Sweat, Sugar In The Asphalt!
Woo! Today was woo-ish ... I woo-ed alot ... almost kena scolded by Winston for doing that ... I suck ...
School was normal ... brought my Guitar ... played and showed off my Awesomic Guitaric Grammafic Rythmic Morphic Scientific Music-al Skillz!
After skool. I had a rehersal for the Model thing. Yanti and Me had to pose ... more awkwardly this time ... you'll see tomorow ... and Dont' Get The Wrong Idea after you seen it ... it's just for a Pose .. not for real.
And oh yeah ... I just realised how many Emo songs can relate my life. Wow .. an Example is "I'm Not Okay! (I Promise) by MCR", "Of All Joints In The World - Fall Out Boy", "Boulevard Of Broken Dreams - Green Day", "Give It All - Rise Against", etc ... and many more. My life really sucks. I have no one ... maybe if someone would be with me .. I would be happier and my life would be better .. but currently I suck at Love etc ... so I maybe destined to Walk Alone ... sigh...
Kthxbb
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/07/2006 09:30:00 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
XXX = Bad
3 Easy Words:
PORN IS BORING!!!!1one...Nuff said ... So Shuddup!Oh, and don't ask me why my Treasure Hunt event progress has been slow .. I'm currently on the verge of Suiciding myself ... I've been trying, but people have been stopping me. Crap ... Shuddup! I've thought of this deeply and I know what I'm doing ... so Shuddup!!Kthxbb
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/06/2006 04:35:00 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Demolition Lovers ...
Today, was a weird one ... yeah.
Kokky called me about 6:45am ... I woke up. I tried to get ready for NCC, but my Body was EVIL. It put me back to sleep ... and I woke up at 7:30am instead. Fuck sia ...
So I came to training late again. Dammit ... from now on, every Friday, I'm sleeping at 8pm ... so I can wake up fucking early, so I can go for training early ... dammit.
During training, didn't even managed to train my Part As ... I just went for NDP Rehersal. Stood there twice. Almost wanted to faint, but I endured by singing along with the songs. Hah! Our NCC Unit is seriously embarassing ... we cant even March properly ... I fear the worst for us.
After the rehersal, I went up to the Hall for another Rehersal ... Waited there for like 1-2hours ... after that, I stood on stage (I'm the model for the Costume Comp thingy). I stood with Yanti ... yeah ... nvm. When it was our turn .. we did something ... well .. nvm. We locked our Arms together, like a couple ... beh ... kinda embarassing ... but it felt good and awkward at the same time.
After the whole thingy, i went home. But I stopped by Rivervale Plaza for a quick drink. Took 88 home and stucked myself infront of the Computer for the rest of the day. Then people start to tease me about me and yanti .. -_-"
Something strange is going on .. and I dont know what it would lead to ... dont even know how to respond to it ... fate would decide for me ... I maybe destined to do something ... but eventually. Meh...
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/05/2006 10:19:00 PM
Friday, August 04, 2006
We're Falling Apart Through Half-Time....
Today... was ... bleh. I was late for skool again, so I took a taxi. Just my luck, I met a good driver. He was concerned about me being late, that he speed off for most of the trip. When we arrive, he was good enough to give me a $2 discount. Woo! You rock man!
Skool was boring as usual ... I feel like, I'm losing interest in studying .. I tend to sleep more in class, read other books, or even just stare blankly and think about random stuff. I'm losing touch with everything that I have been learning ... I'm going down .. hopefully I can buck up b4 the Exams.
After skool, I went to Pasir Ris Park ... alone. my job was to scout the area to find the good locations for Stations. I rented a bike for 2 hours and I got another hour FREE! It only cost me $14 ... HAH! So I cycled around .. looking for various spots. Found some. Good ones. The Cadets would need to have a keen eye and fast agility to locate these Stations. .... After locating the Stations, I decided to Chill back and relax ... I went to the beach, looked for Sea shells and played with the Waves. I even tried digging a hole to get to the bottom. After that, I just Sat down ... and think again. My mind suddenly started thinking of Her (name not provided) .. I know it sounds awkward, but I felt like I really wanted to be with her ... walk, talk, and even fool around ... I havent been the best when it comes to love and all that dipshit, but I really want to try ...I just felt so lonnely ... then my mind changed channel and I thought about my life .. again. I thought why the fuck am I so lonely, why the fuck am I such a failure .. I can do nothing that is right. Everytime I try to do good, it is never good. Everything I do always harms everybody else. I'm a parasite. I am not wanted, but I am still there. I just felt like I wanted to crawl up and die. Then I thought that might be the reason why I "Walk Alone" ... coincidencely, I was listening "Boulevard Of Broken Dreams by Green Day" while thinking of this ... I really hate me.
After that, I went to Macs and had a short lunch. Then took 88 and went home. Nothing special ... some ol' stuff ... I really feel like dying sometimes ...
When I arrive at home, I immediately went to my Region of Happiness ... my Computer. I went Online in MSN ... few mins later, Yanti went Online ... Since I had time to spare (I needed to go for my Guitar Lesson in like 1 hour time), i decided to talk to Yanti for awhile ... I asked her common question etc ... then we made a deal - If Fadhil doesn't finish the Costumes by Monday, She would Choke him, and I would Pull His ears. Fadhil had better finish those Costumes ... if not, he's gonna get hell .. Haha!
I talked to her for like 20-30mins, then I went off ... I took a quick shower, took my Book, and headed to Sengkang CC for my Guitar lesson. During the Lesson, struming the guitar was hard ... my hand was still sprained and it was hard to move my wrist around. I learned how to do simple Pull-Offs and Hammer Ons .. and he (my instructor) taught me the F-Chord ... the most hardest Chord. I still need practice though. Eventually, I then started to feel tired, so I decided to go home as soon as the lesson was over ... I would have stayed longer and learned more but being at the Beach and Playground and cycling the whole Day has taken alot of my energy. Bleh ...
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/04/2006 08:10:00 PM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
What;s the worst thatI Could Say?!
Well, today was a normal day ... perhaps ... meh.
I was early for skool today (Yay). Skool was okay ... nothing much happened. PE and Recess, played soccer. Good for me today, I didn't Rammed anyone! (Hah!) I slept through Maths Class ... dont know why, my body just shut down while I was reading something. During English class, the whole class went to the Library. The whole period, I just read my book "Rainbow Six by Tom Clancy". It's a good book, but it's damn long. While others were talking, I was reading .. coincidencely, Yanti was also reading ... then Sirin said not to disturb the "Reading Couple" ... -_-" Sirin tried to take away the book Yanti was reading, I returned it to Yanti, because she was still reading it, and Sirin tot I was defending her. Bleh. So what if we like to read. It's just a common interest. Nothing much to get excited about. Just because of that 1 day, people start thinking differently ... bleh.
So okay, after skool went to play soccer (again). Arif, Fadhil, Eugene etc... wanted to go play at Chee On's block, but it's damn far. So we decided to go play somewhere near. While Nelson and Co. when to have Lunch, Arif, Fadhil, Khai, Chee On, and me decided to go to the Nearby Street soccer court. We saw nobody was there and the Gate was open, so we entered and played. I became temporary GK. Baskit, it was my biggest mistake. Fadhil took a penalty kick, and I blocked the shot ... with my right hand. The Ball just pushed hardly against my hand. It hurt so much sia ... my hand felt numb for like 2 mins. After that incident, I "retired" from being GK, and tried having free kicks of my own ... bleh. Few mins later, we were thirsty, Arif, Fadhil, Chee On and me decided to go buck drinks at the nearby shop, while Khai waited. We bought a couple of 1500 ml water and returned to the Court ... only to see the 3 DC (Disciplinary Commitee) members. Mr. Andy Lim, Mr. Reduan, and Mr. Michael. They caught us ... I tot we were gonna be dead. We explain to them what we did, and they tot that we were the Previous 5 people who played the Day before and caused a lot of Ruckus ... hah. Mr. Lim lectured us for a few mins, and they all left off. Few mins later, Nelson and Co. arrived. So we, all just sat at the Physical Fitness Corner and chatted and planned. Eventually, the rest decided to go play at a nearby Field ... while I decided to walk home. Eugene offered me to join them, but I declined. I wanted to go home and "fix" my arm ... it still hurts.
So, I just walk home ... nothing much. Half way while walking, I listened to my Mp3 player ... which I just bought 3 weeks ago, and thr Screen is already busted. Dont know why. But at least I can still listen to it.
So nothing else happened ... that's all ... FOR NOW! ... Au Revoir Mon Ami! (bleh...)
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/03/2006 04:46:00 PM
The Beginning Of The End
Yes ... I'm sorry master ... but, I have Fallen to the Blog Side!! NOooooooooo!!!1....
Meh ...
Well, anyways, I created this .. blog thingy because I was bored and I needed something to express my full bloody feelings. Evil!! I may or may not update my blog ... so Shuddup! Hehe ...
So alright, nothing else for now ... Au Revoir Mon Ami .. (<--- French for "Goodbye My Friend")
Unapologetic apathies...:: 8/03/2006 12:03:00 AM
